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Nov. 17th, 2006 11:49 amhooray!
for 12th night, I get to share a room with![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
hinkie
how much fun will THAT be? each suite has a fireplace. I expect knitting to happen, espcially as we're all staying over till Monday. (thankssecretsquire and apollo_f1for the suggestion...)
I loves me the ocean in the winter.
its one of the things I miss from where I grew up...from our kitchen in the santacruz mountains, you could see the ocean and the storms were pretty amazign...
that and the fog... sometimes I can smell the ocean from my house, but not often. too bad...
anyway, looking forward to it very much. in fact, more than the event itself. but lets not dwell on that, shall we? It will be lovely to see people, and to seescratchel andoptimus_prime step up (again ;)) and to see the clothing for the stepdown that annisa_1380has been working so hard on (wait till you see it!!! glasseyeis spearheadign the bezants while feargais heading up the fitting team down south...)
but I am right now wrestling with the concept of balance in the SCA. Balance in service, balance in emotional investment, balance in all things. the pitiful attempts by amateurs to perpetuate machiavellian machinations should be percieved as pathetic, not as a threat. A life lived by constant and steadfast standards will out over such bombast. It will, truely, though it may take longer than most people have the patience for...
I dont like being disappointed in people...I expect them to do the right thing and when they dont, its rather disheartening. Must remember to keep it all in perspective. because in the end, really? it doesnt matter AT ALL. all that matters is that you've lived a good life to the utmost of your ability and left the place cleaner than you found it.
balance. when you invest so much in a person or situation that things become unbalanced, that's NOT GOOD. when you put your self worth into a single basket, and let some random stranger hold it for you? NOT GOOD. and when you invest your heart in a project, you need to be very clear about what 'positive outcome" you are hoping to get out of it, and be sure that its an outcome that is not dependant on anyone else.
if you wait for someone to say thank you and they dont, the fault is your own for letting their acknowlegement be the yardstick of your success. I know this. I have preached it for years. obviously, I still need to learn the lesson and I should be grateful to the world for beign patient enough to teach it to me again and again until I eventually learn....
hrm. sounds like I need to setup a project that has an endpoint that is determined by me. and then I need to give myself permission to do it... (which is another issue for another day...why do we feel that if its just us, the project or goal isnt as valuable as one where the project or goal is for the betterment of someone else? why do you need that to give yourself "permission" to do something that gives yourself benefit?)
egads, I'm all philosophical today. whats up with that????
for 12th night, I get to share a room with
hinkiehow much fun will THAT be? each suite has a fireplace. I expect knitting to happen, espcially as we're all staying over till Monday. (thanks
secretsquire and apollo_f1for the suggestion...)I loves me the ocean in the winter.
its one of the things I miss from where I grew up...from our kitchen in the santacruz mountains, you could see the ocean and the storms were pretty amazign...
that and the fog... sometimes I can smell the ocean from my house, but not often. too bad...
anyway, looking forward to it very much. in fact, more than the event itself. but lets not dwell on that, shall we? It will be lovely to see people, and to see
scratchel andoptimus_prime step up (again ;)) and to see the clothing for the stepdown that annisa_1380has been working so hard on (wait till you see it!!! glasseyeis spearheadign the bezants while feargais heading up the fitting team down south...)but I am right now wrestling with the concept of balance in the SCA. Balance in service, balance in emotional investment, balance in all things. the pitiful attempts by amateurs to perpetuate machiavellian machinations should be percieved as pathetic, not as a threat. A life lived by constant and steadfast standards will out over such bombast. It will, truely, though it may take longer than most people have the patience for...
I dont like being disappointed in people...I expect them to do the right thing and when they dont, its rather disheartening. Must remember to keep it all in perspective. because in the end, really? it doesnt matter AT ALL. all that matters is that you've lived a good life to the utmost of your ability and left the place cleaner than you found it.
balance. when you invest so much in a person or situation that things become unbalanced, that's NOT GOOD. when you put your self worth into a single basket, and let some random stranger hold it for you? NOT GOOD. and when you invest your heart in a project, you need to be very clear about what 'positive outcome" you are hoping to get out of it, and be sure that its an outcome that is not dependant on anyone else.
if you wait for someone to say thank you and they dont, the fault is your own for letting their acknowlegement be the yardstick of your success. I know this. I have preached it for years. obviously, I still need to learn the lesson and I should be grateful to the world for beign patient enough to teach it to me again and again until I eventually learn....
hrm. sounds like I need to setup a project that has an endpoint that is determined by me. and then I need to give myself permission to do it... (which is another issue for another day...why do we feel that if its just us, the project or goal isnt as valuable as one where the project or goal is for the betterment of someone else? why do you need that to give yourself "permission" to do something that gives yourself benefit?)
egads, I'm all philosophical today. whats up with that????
